One Year Ago Today,… (poems)

One year ago today, we lost our little girl, Hope, before we got a chance to know her. I’ve written about that day and the days of hurt that followed already, but I’d like to share a couple of poems that I carry in my heart for my little lost girl. The first is my […]

Remembering the Littles Lost Too Soon

Remembering the Littles Lost Too Soon

I am nearing the one year anniversary of losing my little girl 5 months into my pregnancy, and these past few days and weeks have gotten a little harder as that day nears. The month of October, and yesterday (Oct. 15th) in particular, is the time that we remember those we lost during pregnancy or as […]

And Then There Was One – Coping with Grief and Pregnancy After the Loss of a Twin

And Then There Was One – Coping with Grief and Pregnancy After the Loss of a Twin

I’ve never been good at grieving if that’s something a person can even be good at. But this was altogether different for me. I was feeling the pain of losing my child before I even got to meet her. I wasn’t mourning the loss of the many memories we made together – I was mourning […]

Losing Hope

Losing Hope

With the news that we were going to have twins, we started making preparations and adjusting the few plans we had already made. We learned from our doctor that the babies would be identical- they had separate amniotic sacs but shared a placenta – monozygotic twins. This was less common than fraternal twins (two sacs, two placentas) and also […]